I really do envy those that are able to put all of their time into blogging, aka full time bloggers. Blogging full time isn’t anything that I have ever aspired to do. When I started blogging all those years ago (nearly 5 years!) it wasn’t with the hopes of starting off a career, I just did it because I enjoyed it and looked good on my CV when applying for internships. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love blogging, the opportunities its given me and the friends I have made through it, but I just find it so hard sometimes now that real adult life has become a priority. I’m sure that many bloggers in a similar situation to me will agree with most things I say here. First world problems eh!
WHAT I’M WEARING
Probably the most frustrating thing about running any kind of blog when you also have a 9-5 job is the daylight hours in winter. I get back home at 6pm every weekday and it is pitch black. Which leaves weekends to be the only time I can get any visual content done. Whether its filming a YouTube video, photographing a flat lay or taking shots of some new outfits, you always need good lighting which means you are pretty much screwed in the week. Leaving weekends to take all of your photos and videos can be extremely stressful. I don’t know about you but I can never say no to a plan and my weekends are always pretty much booked up. This then means that I need to squeeze in a photoshoot around what I am doing, or ask a friend to help a gal out.
The goal: outfit photos for Instagram and the blog. The plan: ok, so I cant take street style shots in the week, I am only limited to the weekends. I schedule in to shoot on Saturday and BAM all of a sudden its now going to rain. All day. Living in Manchester means that this happens fairly often. In fact, it happens pretty much every weekend. Fab-u-lous. Just what you want to see – me standing in the centre of Manchester, ringing out my hair and trying to stay calm in a fluffy coat, which now, by the way looks like a drowned rat. I like to try and post every day on Instagram so photographing several outfits in bulk on the same day is essential at times. Its sad but true. If you ever see me walking around town with my Instagram husband carrying 4+ tote bags full of clothes you know what the score is.
Ever get in from a long day in work and just wanna sit on the sofa and play the sims? Me too. Ever get round to actually doing that? No, me neither. And the same goes for anything blog related. There is always some sort of life admin to attend to when I get back from work. Whether its washing, cleaning, tidying, food shopping, cooking tea, prepping lunch or sorting bills, there is always something to do. Then before you know it, its 10pm and I’m pretty much ready for bed. Luckily at the time of writing this I’ve not had to do anything this evening. Ive left my washing in the machine to hang out a little later on and George has brought home chippy tea. Absolutely flippin’ fabulous. It goes without saying that I don’t need an evening like this to blog but It helps massively!
After a full day at work I sometimes find it hard to motivate myself. There are so many things I would like to do with my time and yet I can find so many excuses not to. I go through waves of being incredibly enthusiastic and motivated to not wanting to do anything at all. I don’t know if this is to do with working full time and having my eyes fixed to a screen all day but It may contribute to it. I used to have a 4 hour round commute when I lived on the other side of Manchester, and all of that time on the bus was spent either looking out of the window and thinking about my life, drafting blogs on the notes app on my phone or drawing illustrations on my iPad (my favourite thing to do on the bus.) But now that I walk to and from work I hardly ever seem to find the time to do what I love. I have the time. I have all of that time I spent on the bus back. Why can’t I draw on my sofa at home with no sudden stops, noisy teenagers, crying babies and speed bumps distracting me? Maybe sometimes I just want to chill out on the sofa and make excuses for myself. Thats only human, right?
For me, time is the biggest issue. I just wish there were more hours in the day to enjoy the job that I love and to then come home and enjoy doing a hobby that I love to its full potential. When the summer months come, I will be in my element and I know I’ll be taking full advantage of the weather and the daylight hours. This is something I never did last summer, and I am determined to do it properly this year. Any motivation tips are greatly welcomed along with tips on how to make the best of your free time and how to shoot in the dark, ha!
Laura Frances x